La Heine Vous

yesterday was memorable.

I wanted to talk to HIM before I leave the office but I know it won’t do me any good. I’ll just let him hug me and kiss me and tell me he misses me. I can already see how we’ll look like. I’ll just let him do all those things even if its not the right thing to do, I miss him that much.

I refused to talk to him and left the office with my officemates, off we went somewhere in Metro walk to celebrate my friend’s birthday. overflowing shots of Tequila, beer and gin tonic. I don’t really drink. 1 or two shots of Tequila and I’m good. even though I always say that it’s “bitin” , but that’s just me loving the effect. but yesterday, that was more than 10 shots of Tequila, just one bottle of beer and I think 7 shots of gin tonic. and even then I didn’t cry. I just sat next to JM, lay my head on his shoulder then slept. we left the place after 5 hours and went to Mia’s place ( I can’t go home drunk so they decided to take us somewhere else). I want to thank her family especially her mom for letting us stay in their house. and to all of my office friends for taking care of me and Ethel. Ethel is my long lost sister. haha. we were both drunk yesterday and we’re both thankful to our friends, for taking care of us and staying with us for the whole 24 hours even if their own families were already looking for them.

I called my mom at 12pm saying I can’t go home because I need to stay where I am and sleep. her voice sounded angry but more worried, but she just answered “okay sige, magpahinga ka na. mag ingat ha. love you”. I woke up 6pm that night, had dinner with Mia’s family and office friends, called my mom at 7pm,  I said I’m on my home. we left Mia’s place at 9pm. I was home 10:30 pm. the moment I stepped inside our house, I can hear my mom talking to my aunt upstairs. when she saw me, she just burst into tears and hugged me. she was so worried. I felt so guilty, she hugged me so tight while telling me “wag mo ng uulitin yun ha”. she just cant stop crying and all I can do is hug her back, cry and say sorry. we were hugging each other for more than 30 minutes and my mom was crying the whole time. I felt really bad. I never saw my mom cry that way. she always hug me but not that tight like she doesn’t want to let go. she was really really worried. I’m such a bad girl for making her feel that way. I told her I don’t feel well and that I want to take a bath. she took me to the bathroom and and helped me take a bath. she didn’t say anything. she helped me put on my PJs and waited in my room til I fell asleep. I said sorry one last time before I finally closed my eyes and I felt her lips on my forehead then I was out. and I thought those scenes only happen in the movies.

Nothing really is more divine than a mother’s love. that’s why I love mine so much and I loved her gazillion times more last night.

HANG OVER though hasn’t left me yet. I feel so lutang. like literally.

but the worst thing that happened yesterday was.. I wasn’t able to get back my phone from JM, so… I won’t have it back til Saturday night. so now what?