La Heine Vous

I’ve got all that I need, right here in the passenger seat…

 

Mixed feelings. Mixed emotions.

everyday’s the same.  Happy-Sad-Confused-Happy-Sad-Confused-repeat

well, I’m not complaining

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I’ve been trying to move on with my life, and I can say, I’ve been able to walk few little steps. I’m proud of it. but there are pit stops, and every pit stop there’s him. a little bit of him. and those little pieces STILL keep me holding on. I think I can never forget him. I can never go on without him, he’ll always be there.

he’ll always be one ray of my sun, one drop of my rain

one beat of my heart, one strand of my hair

maybe I’ll love again but I don’t think his place will ever be taken. even the most dashing guy in white polo can’t make him go away.

you know that great feeling when you’re inlove and that special person loves you back? I am feeling it now, even without his presence, even without his words, even if I know he still loves her, even if it’s a case of “ME for YOU against the world” , I STILL FEEL IT.

I am not being pathetic, maybe I’m starting to accept what it really is. and I’m proud to have experienced this kind of love. it feels so pure and sacred. that even it caused too much pain, and even if it’s not perfect, it still feels perfect and never a drop of regret.

LOVE.

“watching the meteor shower alone isn’t so bad,especially when I was thinking about you the whole time and how we’re looking at the same sky”

this night was lonely like most of my weeknights, but this particular weeknight was pleasantly lonely. I realized I miss him SO MUCH already. He hasn’t called me in days, but maybe something came up, or something comes up everyday whatever. that’s not the point. my point is.. I still has it. IT still makes me happy. you know what they say “the reason why you smile is the same reason why you cry” or something like that